"I am nothing. I am nobody. I am garbage. I am a waste of space. The air that I breath is wasted and would be better spent on someone more worthy than I. My very existence has no purpose....no meaning...other than to be a burden upon others."
It's comments like these that repel people. It smacks of low self esteem and low self worth, doesn't it? These are the words, often whispered in the voices of those who have cut us down verbally before, that repeat, almost like a mantra, in our heads in order to hold us back.
The ironic thing about this is upon hearing these comments, whether from someone else's lips or from our own brains, our survival skills kick in. A kind of flight or fight response ensues, in which we deny it emphatically and jump to our own defense. And in so doing, we seek to convince ourselves of it's untruth, much more than others, because the simple accusation laid to bear is enough to crack the safe box of reality we wrap ourselves in, where we deny any flaws or issues we might have. It hides the question that no one, not even those considered to have high self esteem, wishes to face. What if those whispers are right?